The Things I say.. ( a letter from me)

::::well you know I love you.When:::::

I find myself anxiously awaiting for your name to pop up on a screen.. Every time i see "new message" I can’t help but hope it’s word from you, and all I have is a few still photos and the hypnotizing letters you so arrange with strokes of your hands across the keys, to create words that seemingly penetrate me so deeply .. Can’t help but wonder what it would feel to give in to your touch. Broken as you seem to think you are. each piece, each part of you, you seem to think you lost.. I’ll find and build back up in a beautiful collage that makes us fit so well... Long as I see beauty and call it love, whats another’s opinion matter, Too change one thing we may not fit so well. Then where would we be? Broken once again, displaced and Alone.

all these words just to say I think you’re perfect the way you are and, I like you just for being you...
"I hope your day went well."

~Andrew...

The fight within spilled out and took control

I found myself in the most vulnerable position I've ever been in..
I was hurt and scared but, I simply couldn't allow myself to fall from being.
There's still life to live whether I like it or not.. Without her would be a life apart from myself that I just really don't ever want too know.
she was seeing someone else because this wasn't "real" enough.. I wont go into great detail because that is a moment we have to share between us but.. It came down to me saying 'if this isn't "real" then what I had to say shouldn't really hurt.' (Guess it did, so there was 'proof' it's real) ....
This is life though.. It's amazing , disappointing, hard and loving. Something can only matter much as you're willing to put into it.. (I hope you know you've got my all)

A Miserable Attempt Of Expression

"LOVE & RELATIONSHIPS"
(MY OPINION)

I really don't know what to type here, In this section.
I could tell you about failed attempts or even rejected offers of "love". My view of Love isn't the same as most peoples and I've always had problems expressing myself on this subject because most people just don't quite understand what it actually means when I say "I love you". When I say I love you, You have my unconditional compassion. Not in all cases where I say "I Love you", is it on a romantic level. I create a bond that's undivided unshakable and in most instances unreturned. That's alright I've learned in this life you don't have to like the things you love. I know for the most part that sounds like a contradiction.. NOT liking the things you love but, it's true.

However right now I have an amazing relationship going on right now.
Right now it's just Online. Most people will ask, What do you mean? How can you call that a relationship?.. To be perfectly honest, I have no idea. What does it matter in the way that 2 people make a connection, Only that they do. Which we have.. So why call or consider it anything less then love. I can only tell you of one other person that has ever had the ability to effect me with their words and I've known them for years and never once did I tell them I "love" them.. So I really can't tell you how love works or how it's "suppose" too. Only that I DO feel...

Perhaps looking in on it, It doesn't seem great or amazing perhaps we could have been anyone to each other.. we just happened to meet at a precise moment that worked for us. It all depends on if you believe in fate or love at first sight or celestial signs or whatever else it is you may believe that the "powers" of love work by... I can only tell you that I don't think that love's always great or perfect but it is always amazing.. By that I just mean some people think love JUST happens that it just is. I happen to agree with this to an extent but.. I believe it's brought on in a moment but what makes it last? Much as I wish love were easy.. If you've ever noticed it's the ones that are unwilling to work at it that are alone.. or the ones who say they did try and it just didn't work out, Those fail to tell you that THEY were the only ones fighting to make it work because they cared, not because the other person in the relationship cared.. so they went on wasting their time believing in a fairy tale love story.. which always seems like a great idea but for those that believe in that or not having to put up a fight because "if they were loved, They wouldn't have to fight for it." but no one's asking YOU to "fight" just return the amount of effort put into it.
Don't think of a relationship as a 50-50 % partnership but rather 100-100 % partnership. Why only do a half ass job at something that could last a life time or if you really cared you'd have no problem in anything less than putting 100% of your effort into it. Especially when it comes to "Love".

~I think I have finally found someone worth my efforts~